An Answer to Prayer

I don't even know where to begin. In the afternoon on Tuesday April 30th, our phone rang, it was our agency asking if we'd like to see a file?! I was totally caught off guard...she follows with let me tell you about the file and you can decide. Our file said we would be open to prematurity, so this is why we have been called. But I can't deny God's providence, I don't believe in happenstance. We say yes, an email comes and then there she is! I can't even tell you what that moment was like for me. Then back to reality, we read all the notes and medical info. We begin calling friends and friends of friends with helpful pediatricians, np's, and Dr's...we wait, and get more info-the good the bad the ugly...
And I cried...and cried....say no, how does a person say no? This is what we have prayed for, this is the answer isn't it? And now I can look back and say that moment when I saw her sweet face-that was God's letter for me...He wanted me to know & remember this our first meeting....not face to face, but straight into this Mom's heart. A fear for this adopting mom was will I love this child like I do my own; and the first glimpse of her I knew she was mine! And the whispers that followed were HIS. He assured me she was HIS. El Roi knows her more than I can....and that just takes my breath away; He knit her in her mother's womb; and breathed life into her; I wasn't there for those moments, but He was & I am so grateful for Him...and for that sweet momma wherever she is, I'm so thankful she chose life. I pray that she'll be filled with peace over the choice she made; for whatever reason, that she'll know it was the right one & that God intended her home to be with us. This sacrifice it is bigger than I can put into words...
And a name; as Derek & I just fell more in love with this little peanut, we were overjoyed to be flipping through baby names. One of our favorite past times-what's in a name? So, so much, and as you look at this tiny Chinese face; an American name just didn't seem to fit quite right. So then we started looking into meanings...oh my! 
Kai-in Chinese this name means 'triumphant'!, in Finnish 'rejoice', in Burmese 'strong', in Swahili 'loveable' & boy is she ever!! And then my favorite Maelin (we've heard all sorts of pronunciations off Malin/Malyn/Maulin/Maylin) which means 'little warrior'...
Our sweet daughter is Kai Maelin- our triumphant little warrior...then after naming our sweet girl we review her file once again & she is in Kaifeng, this I knew, but it just wasn't registering at the time I guess; so not only do we love the meaning...it's filled with history, old/and new Mae was my grandmother's sister's name. Perfect.
Derek said there is no way we could have chosen a better name...but, the Lord provided her name! El Roi knows her! Melt my heart that husband of mine!!
I'm not yet going to paste her sweet face here...but will just ask for continued prayers as we prepare to bring her home. That she'll receive the care she needs, that her sweet heart and mind will be protected and ready for this giant transition that is coming. We pray for her grief & time that we will continue to be separated. We know she's ours, we can't wait for you to meet her.
It's an answer we won't soon forget...God is so good!